Thursday, March 28, 2013

Dragging Around A Gray Cloud

Last night I didn't get a blog post written because I was off enjoying a beautiful Easter Musical at our church.  Dad and Mom drove up to join Hubby, our Engineer, and me for a delightful presentation of the Easter story through song. 

Today has been less Rosie than I like...and truthfully, as I sat down to write, I wondered if I could really pull off a Rosie Outlook tonight.  I'm not in a Blue Hue...but I've just had a tough day.  I've done a lot of praying and a little bit of crying.  I am exhausted and worn out.  And I really think I could just crawl into bed right now and fall asleep. 

I'm sure when I wake up in the morning, things will be more Rosie....but this day had a gray cloud that hung over me and I allowed it to be my focus.  Have you ever done that?  Have you ever allowed something beyond your control to hover over you all day - taking over your thoughts and messing up your day?  Or it is just me?

I'm thinking there are others out there that struggle with this from time to time as well.

It's frustrating because even as I am allowing it, I have full knowledge that I do not have to spend the day letting this problem hang over me and yet...admittedly I can be (as Hubby says) "a wallower".  Sometimes, I not only wallow in a problem, but I know I am wallowing, and really...I just want to wallow.  I don't want to fix it.  I don't want to try to let it go.  I just want to think, and worry, and cry over it...sometimes. 

I don't do this with every issue in my life, but...sometimes I do.  And today I did.

What can I do to fix that? I am writing this, it dawns on me that I never did my March Quest today.  I had a pretty busy day and I didn't stop for even a few minutes to sit down and read some of a book. 

Since I just realized this, I have also discovered an answer to my problem.  I'm going to get off this blog and take some time to read.  I think I need to turn to Psalms in the Bible. 

Tonight I will let God's Word fill my soul and lift this gray cloud that I have been dragging around all day.  It's time.  No more wallowing for me today...

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