Have you ever felt like you needed a vacation from your vacation the day after you arrived home from a trip? That's how I felt today. Our little weekend adventure was a lot of driving, a couple of busy days, and then more driving. And totally worth it. But I am a bit tired today. And I'm already missing our Scientist.
I did manage to get a little laundry done today. I also unpacked a little. I loved on some puppies that thought we were NEVER coming back. And, of course, the Engineer and I did 10th grade. We learned all kinds of interesting and exciting bits of history and science today. As we went over his school work for the day, I once again found myself so thankful for his academic abilities.
Later in the day I fixed supper, cleaned up supper, and tidied up the kitchen. Now it is finally time to settle into the Hug Chair and reflect on my February Quests of the day. I hope your day was as entertaining and fun-filled as mine.
Flossing & Exercising
Of course, with Flossing and Exercising on the agenda, you know it was a fun and exciting day. I'm still not a fan of Flossing...I have eight more days to fall in love with it....hmmmmm.
As I mentioned yesterday, we did a lot of walking on our little weekend adventure. I think that mixed with the long car rides, bothered my knee a bit. It's a little achy again. This morning, I decided it wasn't too bad, so I put on my knee brace and did Week 2 - Day 1 of C25K.
I am determined to be ready to run the 5k with the Producer, so I will push on for now, unless I think I'm really hurting my knee. With the brace on, it felt fine the entire run/walk. I'm hoping it won't be a problem for me as the running part of the C25K training picks up.
I was thinking about this a few days ago, and I decided I wanted to share it with you. I am three years into my forties. In September I will turn 44. I am screaming toward my "mid forties" and you know what? I really like the 40s. I might even go as far as to say that I actually love being in my 40s.
The day I turned 40, my then 39 year old friend, Warrior Mom, told me her Granny said the best years of her life were after 40. I loved that idea. What a wonderful thing to say to a friend on the day she turns 40! It meant a lot to me at the time and I have never forgotten it!
Warrior Mom and I have been friends since our freshman year of high school (back in the days when she was Pioneer Girl...her Blog Names may or may not have something to do with High School Mascots). We have one of those awesome friendships that has lasted even if we don't get a chance to see each other or talk to each other for months or even years. We always pick right up like we have never been apart. I love her for that!
Our lives have changed dramatically since our days of homework and waiting tables together at Aunt & Uncle's restaurant, but our friendship is still real, lasting, and important to us. It's one of those friendships that has survived into our 40s and is special and filled with a whole range of memories from sorrow to happiness.
As I remembered what Warrior Girl's wise Granny said, I could totally see how that could be true. For me, it's kind of hard to explain, but I have finally reached a point where I feel free to be me. I don't apologize for who I am. I don't try to fit other's ideas of who they think I should be. I don't take things so personally. I don't worry over things I can't change. I think I love more, forgive faster, and let a lot of unnecessary drama just go. I just let it go.
There are so many little things I just don't need anymore, value anymore, or care about anymore. Because I can just ignore those little unimportant things, I don't spend the majority of my time mad, upset, or with hurt feelings. There is much in my life that I can I shrug my shoulders at and ask myself - Does it really matter? In five, ten, fifteen years....will I care then? Is it worth being sad, angry, stressed out with a day ruined? If it isn't, I am learning to just let it go. My time has become more valuable to me. I just don't have time to worry my life away.
On the flip side, there are so many little things in my life that bring me happiness. There is so much that I can appreciate. I know now, it truly is the little things that matter. It's those little moments I have come to love...
Time together. Quiet weekends. Laughter. Sitting around a circle table. Yummy food. Long walks. Short talks. A knowing smile. A card in the mail. A text that brings giggles. A note that makes me cry. A bundle of $8 roses. A kiss on the forehead. A sweet thank you. A crooked smile. Sparkly eyes. A comforting Bible verse. A little prayer. A heart felt hug. I so love the little things.
I have found something so free about being in my 40s and embracing my inner Rosie. It has taken a long time, but I realize now that I kind of like me. I'm okay with who I am. Of course I know I still need to grow, learn, understand, and change. But even those thoughts don't drag me down. I'm up for the adventure of improving and doing better, but I'm also happy with the person I have become.
Even better for me is that in my 40s I have accepted that everyone in this world isn't going to like me. There are people that just don't get me. Maybe I even annoy them. Sometimes I can be a bit much for some people, I guess. And you know what? I'm okay with that. I wasn't always. There was a time when I worried way too much over what other people thought of me.
Admittedly, it is still a work in progress for me, because there are some days when I let those doubts and worries creep in and disturb me. It's especially hard with this blog. Sometimes the written word is read differently than it was intended. I worry what readers will think of me. I get nervous about being judged.
Thankfully, that doesn't last long and I remind myself that I am not dependant on what others think of me. My biggest concern should be that God finds my efforts pleasing. Ahhh, so much good stuff comes with age, doesn't it?
Truthfully, most days, I really don't feel like I'm in my 40s, but I do embrace this time in my life. And I'm learning to love it.